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  • I’ve noticed the Amazonification of my workplace more and more. Today I had to do a work training, but it seemed to be a repurposed Amazon training vid with some edits to make it more relevant to people who work at WF. It was rather strange going through it.
  • feeling a little down because I didn’t have my full closing crew with me tonight. A callout meant that someone had to go close the dishroom so i was missing one person, which meant that we all had to do a bit more work. I hate that we have to cut corners every time someone calls out because yes we do need so many people on the crew and if someone ends up missing, it just means one less person who can close up the department. I am grateful that a co-worker (who transferred to another department recently) came to help clean up and close. I guess I’m that awesome that people still want to work with me even after moving on (jk)
  • I’ve been trying to order a new cosplay for my Nagisa kig but have run into issues (because ordering from China has been fucked up for the past year or so because REASONS). I’m just mad that I had to cancel an Ebay order because they couldn’t ship the dang thing to the US. (I also wish they’d mentioned in their listing that they couldn’t ship to the US *sob*) So I now have to seek my dang cosplay elsewhere
  • I had ordered a new itabag directly from Japan through Zenmarket, and it arrived recently, but now I don’t have any idea how to decorate it. It’s a very nice bag. Very stylish. i could put in some random Genshin stuff I had picked up over the past few months I guess, but I want to do something more with it. I shall brainstorm a bit.
  • I was worried about J getting called up for jury duty (because he’s my ride to work) but he ended up not having to go to the courthouse anyway. Hurrah!
tell the story behind the creation and name of your blog

tell the story behind the creation and name of your blog

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It’s not too complicated. My name, plus In Real Life, because this is a personal blog and I’m trying to chronicle things that happen in my real life.

The creation is mostly because I pay for web hosting my boyfriend’s car forum so I decided to install a WordPress blog on the account just so I could get back to journaling, which I had been doing for about 15 years on LiveJournal before a Russian company bought it and I left. It’s still hard going because I had been in a much better headspace when i was younger so i was a lot more introspective (I think?) but now I find it hard to focus on writing. It’s a shame, but taht’s why I’m trying to get back into it.

tell us about your absolutely favorite entertainment media

tell us about your absolutely favorite entertainment media

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It’s hard for me to just pinpoint one piece of entertainment media that will be my absolute favorite. I think I just liked a lot of TV. As an only child I didn’t have many playmates as a kid, so I ended up watching a lot of television. My overprotective parents were fine with this, all the better to keep tabs on me, but i just grew up on a very steady diet of ’70s and ’80s TV.

But I suppose I could get into some of my favorite media right now. Doctor Who, both classic and modern. Anime. Superhero stuff, both Marvel and DC, Star Wars, Star Trek (what’s left of it, anyway). I mostly like hopeful pieces of media that remind me of the good in the world and that people can and should be kind to one another, that bravery is standing up for those less fortunate. That struggles are lessened when shared, that you can find your soul mate somewhere out in the universe, or you could just as well go at it alone and be just as fulfilled. Just…the amazing journey of life, reflected on the TV screen.

10 Random Facts about Me

10 Random Facts about Me

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After finding out about Blaugust I decided to seek out if there were any prompts for blogging during the challenge, and there were a few, so here’s my post based on the prompt:

  1. I was born in Hawaii and grew up there.
  2. I moved to California at the age of 28.
  3. I’m probably a lot older than anyone reading this may realize (unless they know me personally lol)
  4. I am Filipino-American
  5. My favorite band is Green Day
  6. I wear glasses
  7. I didn’t like Dr. Pepper growing up but now it’s one of my favorite drinks
  8. I taught myself how to sew strictly because of cosplay
  9. I work at a grocery store
  10. I still have a small pillow my mom sewed for me when I was young

the loneliness of the long-distance kigu

the loneliness of the long-distance kigu

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It starts in the bathroom, as with so many other things. A clearing of sorts. Towels pulled from racks and placed out of frame. Clothing hung from hangers. A last second choice that amuses. Another outfit pulled from a rack and brought in the room.

The next steps are careful, almost reverent. A folded up hadatai is removed from its box. A mask as well. Movements are swift but smooth. Regular clothes are stripped away, almost down to bare skin. A singular piece of shapewear, a binder or sometimes a sports bra, is pulled over the chest to smooth out curves. But sometimes there is nothing between the real skin and the second skin. The ritual starts at the head. The hood section is pulled over and arranged to cover everything except the eyes. Nose and mouth disappear under fabric. Then comes the awareness of breath. Its warmth. Its rhythm. It will be a constant companion, a reminder of the real self.

Then the arms slip in, all the way to the fingertips. Once the arms are covered, the transformation really begins. It is all the eyes see now. Fabric skin. Fabric arms. Fabric hands. This hadatai has a crotch zipper, not a back zipper. So the feet must be enclosed now. It is, at times, a struggle. Sitting on the cold floor of a bathroom, contorting to fit. One foot. The other. Then fabric fingers clumsily pinch at the zipper pull. One hand stretches the hadatai while the other drags the zipper along its path. One side up to the crotch. The other side, with its own pull. The tiny, dangling pulls meet at the middle. Body fully enclosed now.

Now the dress-up begins. Pants, shirt, clumsily knotting a tie around the neck, all alone, all with dulled sense of touch through spandex-covered fingers. Done.

Finally. Finally. The mask. The bangs are removed. They’re magnetic. They hide the hinge of the mask. Unclasping the sides. With this style of mask, it feels less like putting it on, and more like shutting one’s head inside. Blindness, but not darkness. Adjust the fit until line of sight is met, through the eyebrow slits of the mask. It is barely enough to see. No peripheral vision. Like blinders, vision is forced to see just what is directly in front. The bangs go back on the mask.

Breathing.

The camera is finicky with fabric fingers. But video makes it easier to get decent shots later. There’s also a mirror, and peeking at it reveals an anime character, that moves as you do. It’s always surprising, no matter how often this happens. The first look in the mirror will always surprise and amuse and thrill. And the temptation is there, to challenge how long to exist as this. It’s a wish. It’s a promise. It’s a bond.

It’s a bond.

Eventually, always too soon, the ritual begins again, in reverse. Mask is taken off, and then scrutinized. A custom piece of wearable art. It demands upkeep. Flyaway strands of the wig require reshaping. That will happen later. Again, the promise. Clothing is removes and arranged back on their hangers and in their place on the rack. The hadatai is removed, carefully, ever so carefully. Fingertips are checked for dinginess or damage. It’s probably time for a wash.

All is cleared up, as if it were never there in the first place.

But yes, there’s video. There’s proof of existence, even if no one else is around when it happens.

I was there.

Youtube obsessions

Youtube obsessions

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The algorithm is real, folks.

I’d started watching a YT channel called Ordinary Adventures because they were one of the few Disney Park vloggers who did a really detailed overview of Disney World’s new Star Wars Hotel, Galactic Starcruiser. I found Peter and Kitra utterly charming and relatable and I binge-watched more of their videos. So now I’m getting recommendations for other channels to watch and I’m actually enjoying some of the suggested videos. Bill and Lisa’s Food and Travel channel is my new favorite obsession. Oops, now I’m that person who watches YT videos with no intention of going to any of the places featured in the video.

I just like to watch.

Honestly, my subscription list on YT varies, from reaction channels to gamers to even the Try Guys and anime vloggers. I don’t know if this makes me easier or harder for the algorithm to cater to. I just find many of these shows relaxing and entertaining, which, I suppose is the point

Speaking of relaxing, I had a playlist of just nature sounds, white noise, and lo-fi music streamers just for when I was extremely stressed out, which, when J’s mom was in a terrible mood, was often. With her gone, I decided to delete this playlist. I don’t need it anymore. I still has stress, for sure, but I can manage it so much easier now that there’s not a person in the house who is screaming at 3 in the morning.

So it goes.

Why people?

Why people?

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Last week, I’d decided that I was comfortable enough to go to work without a mask. After my migraine escapade, I felt like I needed to keep as unrestricted as possible, which turned out to be my downfall.On the second day of my mask-free escapade I had two encounters with two different customers which made me wary. The first one, unmasked, sneezed without covering his mouth. He just sort of, turned to the side and sneezed. (Have we learned nothing from this pandemic? Have we forgotten to sneeze into our elbow?) I swear, at that point, I was ready to run away from him.

The second encounter was with a smug little man who noticed I wasn’t wearing a mask and decided that somehow I was anti-mask? I mentioned that there’s no mandate anymore so we’re free to go maskless, and yet he had the urge to tell me that he was ready “just in case someone complained about it”. When I just fucking said that there’s no mandate. Like…he was fucking ready to flaunt his maskless face in other people’s faces and was all eager to get up in other people’s business about it. UGH.Anyway, all this culminated in me getting a scratchy throat, which led to a runny nose, which led to me taking a COVID test (thank you Biden, for the free ones). No, I do not have COVID. IT’s just a regular run of the mill cold, but now I’ve decided to wear my mask forever. Once bitten, twice shy…Also some people continue to be assholes.